How do i approad God? why is it so hard? CHRISTIAN ONLY?

The more you surround yourself with Christian stuff, the easier it will be to "feel" it. If you're having a hard time praying, & the Bible isn't doing it either, then you need to get more involved. Join classes/meetings that your church has through the week. Get better friends who like talking about Jesus. Subscribe to some online Christian newsletters to be delivered to your inbox. Etc. The more you surround yourself in His Word, the easier it will be for you to start "feeling it" :)