Will I ever regain sanity?

You spent a big part of your life with her. So naturally you care for her. But she see's love with someone els. Don't you think you diverse to be happy too? you know you messed up, you made a mistake. Maybe you should pick your self up off the dust and find someone out their that will love you and want to be with you.. Don't think of the could have or should have.. Do something now for your self.. She's probably waiting for you and you don't even know it :)